Please do not steal these poems, as I wrote them myself about my feelings and they are very personal.
Struggling.
I want you, bad.
I don't know why.
I don't know what for.
I have never had you before..
You are just a killer, a murderer.
You ruin the lives of others,
but you are wanted anyway.
You ruin people that have never even touched you.
Why do you do this?
You don't have feelings, you don't breath..
I want to know how you do it.
Media? Smell? Touch? Love? Security?
You are just another battle to fight, in the world full of rights.
I don't know why.
I don't know what for.
I have never had you before..
You are just a killer, a murderer.
You ruin the lives of others,
but you are wanted anyway.
You ruin people that have never even touched you.
Why do you do this?
You don't have feelings, you don't breath..
I want to know how you do it.
Media? Smell? Touch? Love? Security?
You are just another battle to fight, in the world full of rights.
Life is a fight for some, even most.
I fight, every day.
Mainly in the morning, is when I fight the hardest.
During the night, I toss and turn,
that is another fight on it's own.
Thinking about;
where to go,
what to do,
how to get there,
who to go with is a fight.
Every muscle, bone, and inch I move, is a fight.
Waking up, is a fight, falling asleep is a fight.
Eating is a fight, breathing is even a fight.
Seeing is a fight, hearing is a fight.
I fight every single day, with things,
people normally do all the time, and;
not realize how lucky they are to do it freely.
They have freedom, I do not.
Mainly in the morning, is when I fight the hardest.
During the night, I toss and turn,
that is another fight on it's own.
Thinking about;
where to go,
what to do,
how to get there,
who to go with is a fight.
Every muscle, bone, and inch I move, is a fight.
Waking up, is a fight, falling asleep is a fight.
Eating is a fight, breathing is even a fight.
Seeing is a fight, hearing is a fight.
I fight every single day, with things,
people normally do all the time, and;
not realize how lucky they are to do it freely.
They have freedom, I do not.
Fighting with you.
Fighting with you, is like a dark game.
No matter how much we fight, we never tame.
I'm tired of it, it's such a drain.
I don't even know why we fight.
It's such a horrible sight.
It gives me a fright.
When I look at you, all I see is the love in your eyes.
But deep down inside, I just see anger, your ready to rise.
It's not a surprise.
I hurt you so much.
You hurt me just as much.
We both don't want it, but we rush.
I just want it to stop.
But no matter what I do, to stop you.
It just gets to hot.
Please make it end.
But don't pretend..
I just want to be your friend.
Made for him. 18/05/2011.
No matter how much we fight, we never tame.
I'm tired of it, it's such a drain.
I don't even know why we fight.
It's such a horrible sight.
It gives me a fright.
When I look at you, all I see is the love in your eyes.
But deep down inside, I just see anger, your ready to rise.
It's not a surprise.
I hurt you so much.
You hurt me just as much.
We both don't want it, but we rush.
I just want it to stop.
But no matter what I do, to stop you.
It just gets to hot.
Please make it end.
But don't pretend..
I just want to be your friend.
Made for him. 18/05/2011.
Title name: Advertising.
A mind full of wisdom, a heart full of pain.
Nothing makes things worse, besides the rain.
Poor down over me, wash away the feel.
While I kneel here, in fear, it's not clear.
Steer, out of the way, this didn't just start today.
I hear, you are in fear, and I am no where near.
Please come out and make it clear.
I don't want to be in fear..
Written by me; 17/05.2011.
Nothing makes things worse, besides the rain.
Poor down over me, wash away the feel.
While I kneel here, in fear, it's not clear.
Steer, out of the way, this didn't just start today.
I hear, you are in fear, and I am no where near.
Please come out and make it clear.
I don't want to be in fear..
Written by me; 17/05.2011.
Inside my mind.
Spiraling clowns, as close as they come.
Mist out of control, not only in May.
Oh dear, you forgot your hat!
Dreams of mine, inspire to you.
Hats off to her, and to you. be do.
How can I say, that I no longer pray.
How do I talk, about you whose no longer there?
Why would I bother with such a hole in the wall.
Why would I bother with someone so damn small.
To you I say, a clock is not just to show time.
To you I say, what I really saw.
Drawings of nothing on my wall.
Pictures that aren't really pitched.
Music that plays as the days go by.
Oh, the days. They cry, they cry.
Never will I tell you what you really did to me.
Never will I feel the same about me.
Think twice before what you say.For it may break you one day.
The horrid things that happened.
Crimson blood walls, keep me strayed awake.
The cold nights make pain storm in.
No longer, will I lay here thin.
You broke me, as I prayed for you.
Now, no longer will I continue to see you.
This is what happens when you ruin me.
No, not just you, but who he was, he.
Mist out of control, not only in May.
Oh dear, you forgot your hat!
Dreams of mine, inspire to you.
Hats off to her, and to you. be do.
How can I say, that I no longer pray.
How do I talk, about you whose no longer there?
Why would I bother with such a hole in the wall.
Why would I bother with someone so damn small.
To you I say, a clock is not just to show time.
To you I say, what I really saw.
Drawings of nothing on my wall.
Pictures that aren't really pitched.
Music that plays as the days go by.
Oh, the days. They cry, they cry.
Never will I tell you what you really did to me.
Never will I feel the same about me.
Think twice before what you say.For it may break you one day.
The horrid things that happened.
Crimson blood walls, keep me strayed awake.
The cold nights make pain storm in.
No longer, will I lay here thin.
You broke me, as I prayed for you.
Now, no longer will I continue to see you.
This is what happens when you ruin me.
No, not just you, but who he was, he.
For you.
You've been gone for a year.
No where to be near.
I wanted you here.
You didn't want me near.
At first it was me, that couldn't see.
I ran from you, so you couldn't hurt me.
I loved you, I missed you.
If only you knew.
You abused me, for your self need.
You didn't want me, you didn't need me.
You didn't even want to hear from me.
You say you missed me.
You even kissed me.
You hurt me.
You played me.
You acted different, until you got me.
Then you didn't even really want me.
You made me leave him.
You made me hurt him.
You made me believe him.
I wish I could have seen before,
what you were doing to me.
I just couldn't see.
I didn't want to see,
you hurt me.
You played me good.
You knew you could.
Even though,
It's been three years since we've been apart.
You still have that dart,
right in my heart.
I said a year before, cause I stalk to see.
If you really did ever love me.
I figured you didn't, I figured you don't.
But now your gone, forever.
So there is no hope.
This was written by me on 11/05/2011.
No where to be near.
I wanted you here.
You didn't want me near.
At first it was me, that couldn't see.
I ran from you, so you couldn't hurt me.
I loved you, I missed you.
If only you knew.
You abused me, for your self need.
You didn't want me, you didn't need me.
You didn't even want to hear from me.
You say you missed me.
You even kissed me.
You hurt me.
You played me.
You acted different, until you got me.
Then you didn't even really want me.
You made me leave him.
You made me hurt him.
You made me believe him.
I wish I could have seen before,
what you were doing to me.
I just couldn't see.
I didn't want to see,
you hurt me.
You played me good.
You knew you could.
Even though,
It's been three years since we've been apart.
You still have that dart,
right in my heart.
I said a year before, cause I stalk to see.
If you really did ever love me.
I figured you didn't, I figured you don't.
But now your gone, forever.
So there is no hope.
This was written by me on 11/05/2011.
